Oh the things you can think.

I should make a machine to make up my mind. And to get rid of some of these thoughts that virulently ravage my brain constantly. Because the whole situation is really annoying.

In some news, I don't like Boy (see "Well at Least It's Almost the 15th" since I don't have a 'Cast of My Life' list). Not 'like like'...just in case you were wondering...Or so...NO. I used to, but he's kinda dumb. But that's ok because we're still friends (or at least I think so).  He says he misses me but I always have to remind him that we are going to hang out (I MEAN REALLY. GET A PLANNER OR SOMETHING), which normally gets botched by some outside force (a.k.a., region-typical inconvenient weather timing, family, ect). Hence, guys are idiots. Except for one guy. We'll call him...Black Cat? BC for short? Because black cats are strange in their own way as far as everything goes, yet somehow still very cool. Or at least I think so. And they are also potential bad luck. Although fairly unconventional, he's pretty cool. Or maybe I just lean towards the oddballs because I'm an oddball. But I don't 'like' him . Or at least I don't think I do. I mean I don't really know him all that great, and Facebook friends+rediculous conversations in class don't really mean anything. Plus as far as attractiveness goes its a not really. But regardless I'd definitely like to be friends. Hopefully he's in my math class next trimester so that I can have a partner for things that isn't a total moron. So yeah. BC.

*Side note, if you see something about M, I'm talking about my exchange student.

Did I mention that my 'mom' (I consider many-well actually, not many...only like 2.5?- people to be my non-biological mother.) is pregnant? (One is already preggo and she's about fit to burst) I'm really happy for her :)

Also, I can feel myself pulling away from my family. I'm starting to be one of those people who only live at their house when they're sleeping (half the time I come home and my family has already eaten dinner). My mom complains that I don't ever want to be home and that I'm distant, but I really feel like I can't handle them. All they do is criticize and yell so I'm a little sick of it. I think they're bipolar. Plus, being around them gives me a headache. Hence, I fill my schedule with plans  (which draws complaints and criticism from my mom) and leave the house. Now that I can drive, everything is just a matter of permission. I wish I was one of those people who's super close with their family but I'm really just not. My dad is too far away to really be close or feel any comfort from him, so if I'm not close to my mom or my youngest sister, and then my middle sister seems to only care when it's convenient for her, so....the animals? But anyways...

So that's all I can think of to mention right now, even though there are a million things racing through the ol' noggin right now, it's not really anything that is worth or possible to type about.

Peace like a River ;)

Raven